hate is a strong word - but i really really really don't like you

I won't regret saying this
This thing that I'm saying
Is it better than keeping my mouth shut,
That goes without saying
Call (call) break (break) it (it) off (off)
Call (call) break (break) my (my) own heart (heart)
Maybe I would have been something you'd be good at
Maybe you would have been something I'd be good at
But now we'll never know
I won't be sad but, in case I'll go there everyday
To make myself feel bad, there's a chance
I'll start to wonder if this was the thing to do

i know, i know, i know [you're still my love]

From hundreds of miles, yeah, you cry like a baby.
You plead with me, shout, scream, tell me I'm staying.
I know I know I know, I'm still your love.
Back from the last place that I wanted to fake,
You laugh with me, shout, scream, now tell me you're staying.
I know I know I know, you're still my love.
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too.
This love isn't good unless it's me and you.

Box after box and you're still by my side.
The weather is changing and breaking my stride.
Oh well I know I know I know, it's just this day.
House after house, just like car after car,
You see club after club, and it all seems so far.
I know I know I know, what else are we here for?
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too.
This love isn't good unless it's me and you.

Stick your hands inside of my pockets,
Keep them warm while I'm still here.
Tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't changed me at all.

Last night I was writing about you,
I know my screaming and shouting won't keep you.
I know I know I know, you're still my love.
I wake up to the sound of you working,
In one room right over, you're stressing and loving me.
I know I know I know, be still my love.
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too.
This love isn't good unless it's me and you.

Stick your hands inside of my pockets,
Keep them warm while I'm still here.
Tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't changed me at all.
Stick your heart inside of my chest,
Keep it warm here while we rest.
Tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't changed me at all.

The same as I love you, you'll always love me too.
This love isn't good unless it's me and you.
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too.
This love isn't good unless it's me and you.

soil, soil [ashes to ashes/ i never want to feel this way again]

Oh and I'm feeling directionless yes
But that's to be expected
And I know that best
And in creeps the morning
And another day's lost
You've just written wondering
And I reply fast

All you need to save me
All you need to save me
Call(call)
And I'll be curled on the floor hiding out from it all(all)
And I won't take any other call

I feel like a fool
So I'm going to stop troubling you
Buried in my yard
A letter to send to you
And if I forget
Or God Forbid
Die too soon
Hope that you'll hear me
Know that I wrote to you

All you need to say to me
All you need to say to me
Is call(call)
And I'll be curled on the floor hiding out from it all
And I won't take any other call

something i lack

a photo.
that accurately represents me,
safely, at any given
point
in a fixed period of time
as short as 3 months
and as long as
a
year.

i luh you. [don't ever fucking question that]

don't ever fucking question that
don't ever fucking question that
don't ever fucking question that

don't ever fucking question that
don't ever fucking question that
don't ever fucking question that

enough to hold you to the brightest of lights,
to place you dangerously close to that sun,
enough to acknowledge the flaws you can't ignore
and recognize the cause of what's done is done,
more than enough to put my name behind my ideals,
and neglect my logic twice daily.
enough to keep me looking for my lucy in the sky with gems,
when i remember how you used to call me baby,
enough to look in my mirror with detest
for every tear you shed regardless of why you wept,
enough to curse any man who can't appreciate the depth
of the ocean I swam till i ran out of breath.

i love you, don't ever fucking question that,
that's why we'll probably never get along.
if i was better at finding the right words to say,
i wouldn't need to write these motherfucking songs.

i love you... i love you
never, don't ever fucking question that,
don't ever fucking question that.

riding the public transit,
i study the blank stares to answer my questions
of how and why I got so many grey hairs.
i take care of the nervous that runs through my extension cord,
and i reflect on that reoccurring dream where we met the Lord.
single file lines, to give her a pound one at a time
but when i faced her- i attempted to embrace her, she looked so fine,
i awoke from my sleep before her bodyguard had a chance to beat me
to submission and i still walk with my religion.
i watched the children scurry in circles around a two-way mirror,
worrying about which side of the glass projects the reflection clearer.
i hear the whispers of the wind trying to get me to grin,
gassing' me up about the love that i plucked and i've been stuck within,
for every eclipse that stares at me
from the other side of a paper cup of espresso-
i light a match beneath a kettle,
and for ever set of lips that become attached and equipped with that program
to seek success, i bleed my ethics out a slow drip.
i used to know a man who met a woman, dont remember where,
big beautiful eyes and light brown hair,
she was from the burbs, he was from the south side of the city,
this was back when Franklin avenue was still pretty.
two different worlds apart, but the world is just a small town-
we all know how people like to get down.
here we go, aquarius, pisces,
feel the flow of the fluid as i swim through it to free my soul.
push up the game without the glove numb the pain.
the magic from up above what it does for the brain,

make the love, paint the picture, write the song,
the player met a virgin made a virgo named him sean.
make the love, paint the picture, write the song,
the player met a virgin made a virgo named him sean.
make the love, paint the picture
and write that song till the break of dawn.

i love you- don't ever fucking question that,
that's why we'll probably never get along.
if i was better at finding the right words to say,
i wouldn't need to write these motherfucking songs.

i love you- don't ever fucking question that,
that's why we'll probably never get along.
if i was better at finding the right words to say,
i wouldn't need to write these motherfucking songs.

nineteen. [i want to feel this way forever]

i felt you in my legs before I even met you
and when i laid beside you for the first time
i told you i feel you in my heart, and i don't even know you
now we're saying bye, bye, bye
now we're saying bye, bye, bye

i was nineteen (call me)
i felt you in my life before I ever thought to
feel the need to lay down beside you and tell you
i feel you in my heart, and I don't even know you
and now we're saying bye, bye, bye
now we're saying bye, bye, bye

i was nineteen (call me)
i was nineteen (call me)
flew home, back to where we met
stayed inside i was so upset
cooked up a plan, so good except
i was all alone you were all I had [love you]
you were all mine [love me]

i was yours right
i was yours right
i was nineteen (call me)
i was nineteen (call me)