LAMEEEEE.
i feel and look like shit. that is a fact.
on a slightly happier note happy hallmark holiday a.k.a. valentine's day.
there were roses on my desk this morning. FTW, valentine's day?
<3.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
alarm the alarm
if i'm the first to go, then make it quick
(then make it quick, then make it quick)
we're so young and naïve
if i'm the first to go, then make it quick
(then make it quick, then make it quick)
we're so young and naïve...
it's all for nothing, nothing at all
liars can't be martyrs, don't you know?
let me give it to your plain and simple
you walk a fine line, you walk a fine line
you speak of change, you speak of progress
Well I'll believe it when I see it for myself
let me spell it out a little more clearly
you walk a fine line, you walk a fine line.
can't you see the irony in
what you do to me?
you get so close (so close)
you make me feel so terribly alone...
(then make it quick, then make it quick)
we're so young and naïve
if i'm the first to go, then make it quick
(then make it quick, then make it quick)
we're so young and naïve...
it's all for nothing, nothing at all
liars can't be martyrs, don't you know?
let me give it to your plain and simple
you walk a fine line, you walk a fine line
you speak of change, you speak of progress
Well I'll believe it when I see it for myself
let me spell it out a little more clearly
you walk a fine line, you walk a fine line.
can't you see the irony in
what you do to me?
you get so close (so close)
you make me feel so terribly alone...
fixing what is broken.
"My life has a wonderful cast. I'm just having trouble figuring out the plot."
what if the plot wasn't the problem? what if the cast is the problem?
what if it was my fault? because i cast incorrectly?
what if i have the plot all figured out, and it's the actors that don't fit?
what do you do then?
how can you fix what is broken? how do you know that it's cost effective to repair, instead of starting anew?
what if the plot wasn't the problem? what if the cast is the problem?
what if it was my fault? because i cast incorrectly?
what if i have the plot all figured out, and it's the actors that don't fit?
what do you do then?
how can you fix what is broken? how do you know that it's cost effective to repair, instead of starting anew?
if you don't laugh, you cry.
i'm not a bad person.
i have to keep saying that aloud every once in a while to remind myself that it's true. because regardless of what i know, what i am aware of, and what i have (and will) experience, i am somehow tricked into thinking otherwise. all the time.
i realize when i am being mistreated. i confront it. i do not and will not tolerate being set aside like a broken and outgrown toy. i am a person. a friend. NOT a toy. i will not let myself be disregarded in such a manner. i will NOT be cast off. i will discuss, like an adult, and cut all ties if need be. but i won't let your number take up space in my phone book, i won't be a cute addition to your list of facebook "friends", or a blog's worth of stolen quotes.
i understand when i am being accused. there is a difference in accusal and confrontation. it's not worth the internet screaming matches, we're all too old for that.
i am aware when i am being ignored. i don't care what your excuses are and what circumstances changed you. you are responsible for your relationships with other individuals. there is not a pardon for conscious ignorance. and i will not meet you half way in a situation you have ruptured. if you break it, you fix it. i won't help you pick up the pieces, but i will hold the mended plate. because i have done my part. i don't believe there is any power in the universe that would disagree with that.
i'm just so tired of being made to feel that i am doing wrong by not allowing myself to be inconvenienced, ill-used and ignored. i am worth more than that.
i have to keep saying that aloud every once in a while to remind myself that it's true. because regardless of what i know, what i am aware of, and what i have (and will) experience, i am somehow tricked into thinking otherwise. all the time.
i realize when i am being mistreated. i confront it. i do not and will not tolerate being set aside like a broken and outgrown toy. i am a person. a friend. NOT a toy. i will not let myself be disregarded in such a manner. i will NOT be cast off. i will discuss, like an adult, and cut all ties if need be. but i won't let your number take up space in my phone book, i won't be a cute addition to your list of facebook "friends", or a blog's worth of stolen quotes.
i understand when i am being accused. there is a difference in accusal and confrontation. it's not worth the internet screaming matches, we're all too old for that.
i am aware when i am being ignored. i don't care what your excuses are and what circumstances changed you. you are responsible for your relationships with other individuals. there is not a pardon for conscious ignorance. and i will not meet you half way in a situation you have ruptured. if you break it, you fix it. i won't help you pick up the pieces, but i will hold the mended plate. because i have done my part. i don't believe there is any power in the universe that would disagree with that.
i'm just so tired of being made to feel that i am doing wrong by not allowing myself to be inconvenienced, ill-used and ignored. i am worth more than that.
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